D'oh!

Okay... so it seems that SOMEONE misunderstood me!

Yes, I wanted something to happen in my life. But I didn't ask for a
bloody migrane that's soooo bad that I had to go to hospital in the middle
of the night! >o<" No... there is no God! At least not a nice one... *sob*
My headaches haven't gone away completely but they've gotten better. For a week
I had to take 6 tablets = 3000 grams of paracetamol!!! And now my skin is
all red and eww *sobsob* But since saturday I reduced it down to 2-4 tablets. Depends on how I feel... Taking so many tablets is also bad fot the liver x___x

Anyway... things are getting better at work! I've got stuff to do every now and then and inbetween I watch youtube or play games. It's okay. At least I'm not all depressive anymore. I think it's also because of my last visit at the doctor's. Never been to this doctor but he seemed to be very nice and understanding. He said that my headaches had to do something with my unhappiness at work. He was right, you know.
Well, at least I thought so. It also could have something to do with my eyesight, now, that I sit in front of the PC almost 24/7. Might have to see the Fielmann-dudes this week... *sigh*

And I LOOOOVE buying make-up und beauty products! Dunno why it satisfies me so much xD" Can't really discribe it either. It's fun and putting on make-up is fun and you feel pretty afterwards XD"

And that's it for now!
Going home now =D

It's been a while... Quite a while.

So I've been to Japan. It was great but I'm not gonna write about this now.
*sigh*

At the moment I'm really really depressed and frustrated about my life. School's over - yay - and I actually expected my life to change and become a little bit more exciting. But no. Everyday-life has taken over once again. But the thing is: it's SO BORING!
School was boring, too, but in another way... At least you got to see your friends everyday and at least you had some fun durinng the breaks. Going to work is different:

-->You can't see your friends - in fact, you get to see them once a week, rarely twice a week.
-->You get home really late.
-->When you're home, you are tired and have to go to bed early, so you actually are not able to do anything productive at home anymore.
-->Work is boring because you've got nothing to do and so you sit around waiting for the hours to pass by until you can go home.

My friends' lives seem to change SO MUCH right now. Everyone's moving to another city where they go to university or college. They meet new people and start a whole new chapter...
And me, I'm stuck in my old, boring life. Nothing has changed. Except the fact that I have to adjust to other people's new situations which have changed or are changing at the moment. And I have to admit, I envy them.

So I'm really "emo" at the moment. *sigh*

Come on, God or Jesus, or Allah or Krishna or whoever and whatever you are!
Have some mercy!
Please, let something wonderful, exciting and new happen in my life?!

(No, I'm not desperate - d'oh!)

Wohoo

Gonna be in Japan on Wednesday <3
Rock'n'roll! >D

University, college and stuff

Wazup?
Soon it will be time to apply for college .O.
Well... in January. Right now, I'm working on my portfolio which I will need to apply. The theme is "Living in a modern world" which gives me lots of freedom in the opportunities concerning what I can or rather what I'm allowed to draw . At first, my theme was "Asia". But soon I had realised that this could be a quite boring or rather repetative theme. Also it limited things. So I came up with another theme that gave me more liberty. But I'm scared that my pictures are too... uhm "arty" and not abstract (or whatever) enough. My greatest nightmare would be if the professor said: "Sorry, but you don't seem suited for communications design. You should study art!" You know what I mean? My pictures always seem rather traditional~ Since they ARE pictures - drawn pictures by hand with water colour or pencils. I don't do computer coloured pictures since I don't have the equipment for it. Never did a proper collage before, not fond of handicraft work anyway, nor can I take photos professionally - don't have the camera for it, either. *sigh* I am best at drawing and I think I should stick to that in order to convince the professors that I am talented ~ at least talented enough to be accepted. .O.

That's it.

In England with the Doctor, Franz and Guitars~

Hellou! I'm home again. Well... I've been home since Thursday but was way too lazy to write a new blog entry. Right now my ears are ringing from D'espairsRay's concert in Cologne (which was LOUD)and therefore can't sleep anyway. Might as well write in here!

Riiiight~ I've been to lovely England to visit my lovely family. It was very nice to see my cousins again after three years. They've grown up so much T__T They are really nice boys and very talented, too. My uncle asked my Dad and me to bring along our guitars because one of my cousins wants an acoustic guitar and so he wanted to know on which ones we play. He was very fond of my Dad's guitar XD" Mine was a little too girly, I think haha. =D But as he was so talented in playing on it I got quite mad at myself for sucking so much at guitar playing XD" So we bought a capo at the local guitar shop - which was veeeery cool btw - and as soon as I got home I picked up my guitar and started to play Oasis' Wonderwall. Great song! And now I'm trying to play Franz Ferdinand's Walk away. No problem at the beginning. But the chorus has some dificult chord changes *sigh* And yeah Franz are my latest obsession XD" Dunno why I like them so much suddenly whereas before they never cought my attention that much. I guess it's because I wasn't open for "western" music... You know, just listening to japanese stuff and all. Anyway, I've listened to them all the way from Germany to England and they are brilliant! Of course, there are some songs I don't like: Lucid Dreams - it's a little too "electric" for my taste and way too long (I hate it when songs go on and on and on and on and....) and also Dream Again is... weird. Is it about drugs? XD" And then again there is Eleanor put your boots on which is such a lovely and sweet song, one of my favs. After I found out that Alex had written it for his girlfriend Eleanor I liked it even more XD" She looks quite cute (a bit like from the 70s though XD")I can actually imagine her putting her boots on and starting to run und jump around haha.


Also, the Franz guys seem to be very nice and down to earth.
Love Nick and Alex xD" Dunno about Paul and Bob - they seem to be shy XD" My Grandmother thought they were from Germany xD No, there are from Scotland! Somehow, my Grandmother doesn't like Scottish people *drop* and French people.ID" So I asked - trying to denfend all Scottish people out there - "What's wrong with being Scottish then?" Can't remember what she said but something about that the English never liked the Scottish bla bla. Humbuck. I like listening to Scottish accent. It's somehow very melodic~ When I heard Billy Boid talking in an Lord of the Rings interview back then remember saying to my Mother: "Maybe I'm gonna marry a Scot. Their accent sounds so nice." Hahahahaha XD" That would annoy my Grandmother.
You know who's also Scottish? Doctor Who a.k.a. David Tennant. Love him! *.* And my Grandmother (paradoxicaly) loves him, too. She said: "I wouldn't mind going on a trip with the Doctor if it's David Tennant." or something like that XD" I'm a fan of Doctor Who and so I bought the complete second season (with my dear Rose T___T) on dvd at HMV. God, I LOVE HMV X33 Also bought Tonight:Franz Ferdinand and Coldplay's Viva La Vida. Bought two Doctor Who books as well. *sigh* I'm not emotianally affected by this tv show noooooo~ not at all. It's not like I cried at the 2nd season finale or anything nooooo~ Not that I missed Rose or anything nooooooo~ I'm butch - I can take it when tv shows get sad and tragic! Hah! It's not like I'm gonna cry when the Doctor regenerates and David Tennant as Doctor Who will be no more... No, never! (...... T____T Why..... why, David, why??.... XD")



Went to Brighton on Sunday. And the weather was (as you can see in the first picture) ~~~P E R F E C T!~~~ Also perfect for getting a sunburn. I looked like a tomato that day... Geeez! Now I'm slightly tanned ID" I love the Brighton Pier! Went on a ride with my Dad - you know that Water ride splashy thing. Good fun but expensive! @_@ Played table hockey at a broken table and so the game went on and on and on and on and the machine even gave our 50P back XD" I won.


Here are some more pictures:

Me sleeping on the ferry on our way to England. It was so cold and I didn't bring a jacket so my Mom covered me with newspapers XD I look like a homeless, don't I?






Guildford High Street. Love it. Beautiful place.








View from Guildford Castle. Pretty.









Me in a Tree at the Arboretum.
It's a very nice place. In England one is allowed to take the ashes of the deceased home therefore there is no grave other people could visit. You can plant a tree here for a late family member instead of having a grave on the cemetary. Next to the tree for my Grandfather there was a tree with a slip of paper that said: My Mom. It was a child's writing. Very sad.

Gone <3

Helloooou~ <3
Long time no see BUT I'm gonna be away for 8 days. X3
On holidays, yes, yes~


See ya <3

Promnight <3

Yeah, it was promnight on saturday *.*

And it was great! The location was awesome, the food was delicious and the program, aside from the speaches, was great and very entertaining. My fellow students did a great job! The party after the ball was cool, too. We danced a lot and the drinks were yummy ^-^. Yeah, that's me in my dress.
And now I feel... free XD" No mor pressure and apart from going to work, I have time to draw again or to clean up. I tidied up my room and my desk area up already. I really like it tidy in my room - I feels so much cosier.


Now, I'm listening to Gease OST *lovelove*
Not much to report. Work is boring most of the time, I'm tired when I get home around 5pm... but I'm happy ^_______^